Two of my New Year's Resolutions were to get fit and to read my New Testament Bible in a year. I'm keeping to the fitness part, but it's been about a week since I even attempted to read my Bible. *shame* The Devil really knows how to get me.
Since I made my decision to take my walk with Christ much more seriously, it seems my life has exploded. Amazingly, I'm enjoying 'almost' every bit of the craziness that is going on every day. The problem is, it is leaving me incredibly distracted and exhausted at the end of each day. The time I was reserving for quiet time with God is now used cleaning the house, because I wasn't home that day to do it, looking over my schedule to fit in a new client, or simply being completely worthless and lazy on the couch watching Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares. (one of my new favorite shows.) It's amazing how I can find time for everything else each day, but not my time with God. What's even more amazing is how I can feel a difference in myself because of it.
I'm feeling much more on edge, more tired, more pressured, and an entire list of things that are not very typical of my personality. I'm looking at my list of things to do and getting tired just thinking about it all! I wonder if I should drop some things to make more down time... but for some reason that just does not feel like the way God is leading me. The more I convince myself that I just need to stop doing "this" or "that" to feel better, the more I hear God saying to keep doing what I am, but just lean on him. Oh... that's easy for him to say...
Thankfully our church is starting a new Beth Moore Bible study tonight (8pm for any women that want to come!) and I think it is exactly what I need. Not coincidentally, Clayton has a random month of the day shift this month. If he didn't, I'd never be able to go. God is so good.. he works my life out for me if I just let him.