Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Loving my kids again

Posted by Mandy at 2:21 PM

The 5th month must be the best month of pregnancy! I am finally feeling like "me" again. I can eat again (as of THIS week!), I can clean the house like I normally do, get laundry done, do Carter's school work with him, and play with the kids... this is the life! I'm not huge yet, but am comfortably pregnant. I finally look like I belong in the maternity clothes I've been wearing and, without being too graphic, my husband is feeling loved again. lol The best thing about all of this is I finally am able to be a really good mom again. I haven't had to drag myself off of the couch to "come look at this" or peel myself off of the bathroom floor to play Candyland in a few weeks. I can tell Madison and Carter are really enjoying having me back to normal. Feeling this good makes me so excited to be adding another child to the family. It's funny how the days that I'm sick and/or exhausted I get really freaked out that this baby is actually coming. I have the "I cannot do this" thought or "what have I done?", which is even worse. Suzanne and I have taken turns reminding each other that once the baby comes, we won't be pregnant anymore.. just tired. lol (which is far easier for me than being pg AND tired) And, there's always the fantasy that "this one might be a good sleeper." (ha ha) Then, on days like today, I am nothing but euphoric about this little boy coming. I have the superwoman complex... "I can do this! I can do anything!" The bad thing about feeling this good is that I'm already forgetting how hard the first 4 months of being pregnant were for me. (and this is my 'easy' pg) It makes me question whether or not I can really say this is the last. (Did I say that?) I know that Clayton is DONE with 3... so I just pray that this baby coming does trigger a "complete" feeling in me. I guess that no matter how many children you have, some women just will always want more. I think it's just hard to see your babies grow up and know that that's it. No more babies.. ever. That's a hard pill for me to swallow. I guess only time will tell how I will feel in the future. I imagine once the reality of HAVING 3 kids gets here, I might very well feel done having children! lol

9 comments:

K.T. on Tuesday, 13 February, 2007 said...

It is great that you are feeling well!!!I can barely even remember the pregnancy feeling, myself.I am loving the picture of the kids!!!

T J on Tuesday, 13 February, 2007 said...

I have really enjoyed getting to know you and Clayton better. I hope we can have you guys over sometime to play cards or something so we can get to know you a little more. I won't be a group this week so I will see you guys in a week or so.

Lee Ann James on Tuesday, 13 February, 2007 said...

Yea! You're happy! Although, you do a pretty good fake-happy. You've seemed to be doing great so far to me! Glad that things are looking up! I've only been sick for 3 1/2 days, and I already feel ready to throw in the towel...I can't imagine feeling sick for 4 months! Yet another free dose of birth control from my mothering pals. Thanks!

Brandy on Wednesday, 14 February, 2007 said...

it was my experience that beginning with number 3, it got easier. i'm not saying that there weren't chaotic days that felt insane, but i am saying, on a whole, it was easier. you'll be suprised at how much madison can do. and also you're more experienced, so you kind of know what works and don't freak out at every sound/sniff/etc. that's exhausting! i never have sleepers, and it wore me out with my first 2, listening to everyone else and trying so hard to get them to sleep in their own bed. finally with the third i wised up and quit listening to everyone else. we didn't even put up a crib. she slept with us the entire first year. we were all better rested and loved it. (besides, husbands like creativity - hint, hint!) anyway...think hard before making anything final. tj and i strongly regret not being able to have more children.

Jennifer on Wednesday, 14 February, 2007 said...

That's beautiful. I am so glad you are feeling better. I understand you completely. Now that Micah is beginning to be mobile, I want another baby to hold on to. We will definately not be having anymore, but I miss having a newborn already. I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes great. I know it will.

Mandy on Wednesday, 14 February, 2007 said...

TJ, we'd LOVE to get together sometime. :) Clayton's a great card player and I can fake it pretty well. lol

Brandy, I totally agree on the cosleeping. Carter is still in our bed everynight, most nights, b/c I'd rather sleep than fight. lol This time, I won't even TRY to make the baby sleep alone... carter wouldn't even sleep in the cosleeper b/c he was too far away I guess lol.. he slept on the boob his first 8 months! Rest is precious though.. I don't care how i get it. And we're definitely NOT doing anything final... that would break my heart even if we never decide to have another!

Mandy on Wednesday, 14 February, 2007 said...

Oh, and cosleeping just goes hand in hand with the attatchment parenting method we practise. :) I just think it makes life easier, but there are REAL benfits to mom and baby (and dad!) to cosleeping.. it's amazing the science on it all.

Brandy on Thursday, 15 February, 2007 said...

i swapped when i changed my template. i like it cause it's easier to add links or edit anything on my page. and i didn't have to get a google email...my yahoo one worked.

chickadee on Friday, 16 February, 2007 said...

after each delivery i was always up for another. though after the days of sleep-deprivation and the memory of the first four months of pregnancy came back i hesitated. you're right, at least we have a few good months in the middle.

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